2000-11-23 - 07:57:43

�I don�t want to get over you�I guess I could take a sleeping pill, and sleep at will, and not have to go through what I go through��

For the last two nights in a row now, I�ve had vivid dreams about my little brother dying in graphic, horrible ways. I think this is as a direct result of him calling me from Sydney, Australia last weekend, telling me he was �just about to hit the beach� and as I looked out at the London sky, wet and grey like a recently drowned slab of concrete, I silently wished him immediate physical harm. Having said that, if he IS actually maimed in a freak shark attack, I would feel rather guilty.

I say �little�; he�s actually a good 5 inches taller. He got the height, looks and athleticism. I got the propensity to alphabetise my reading material. Now then girls, I know it�s a tough choice.

I�m glad I can laugh about / at my brother now. I must tell you about him someday.

�I guess I could take prozac right, and just smile all night at somebody who�somebody not too bright, but sweet and kind, who would try to get you off my mind��

I�ve just acquainted myself with the chads in all their guises. Hanging, swinging, tri and pregnant. I�m down with all that. Who would have thought democracy was so interesting?! This is better than, ooh, having a big, stupid, arms dealing advent calendar. You just never know what you�re going to get next. But, and I quote: Getting a new president is like hanging an �Under New Management� sign over a porn shop.

��or I could make a career of being blue, I could dress in black and read Camus, smoke clove cigarettes and drink Vermouth��

Alleged Moby lookalike-ness comments update: 2 strangers this week.

Personal ad of the week, from dance music magazine Ministry of Sound:

WERE YOU THE GIRL with braids, blue T-shirt, platform trainers, dancing to left of the stage during JFK's set at Passion last Friday? I was the guy curled up under the speaker stack. I meant to talk to you but I was hallucinating and I thought you had a wolf's head and flippers. But I'm OK now!

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Just say no, popkids.

��but I don�t want to get over you��

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